“You’re Too Skinny”| My Story

I’m not overweight or underweight I think I’m somewhere in between, I have a very petite body as well as height. Growing up I’ve always been the small one, It doesn’t help that I look younger than my age as well so I was always “cute” and “tiny”. You don’t really see these things yourself, I wouldn’t know I was smaller than everyone one else if no one pointed it out to me because even standing next to people, they never seem that much taller until a photo is taken or you’re looking in a reflection.

I have tanned skin, dark features and curly hair, all of which did not come from my families genes, I’m not adopted, although I’ve been told this many times. I’m just a rare occasion that turned out different from my sister. Being told “you’re too skinny”, “you need to eat more” and “you look like a stick” an awful lot of times, those words begin to stick. I can’t even remember the exact people who said these things to me because they were constant and came from everyone. I don’t think they affected me when I was younger I just laughed it off and they still don’t affect me now I’m older, in a wider picture I am happy with my body and I’ve learnt to love it.

When I was about 8 ( just a guess ) I was with my sister and cousins playing a game upstairs, we were eating sweets and laughing and I choked, I can still remember the exact sweet it was, the small Haribo that looks like a strawberry, the rounder ones not the flat ones you get nowadays. I ran down stairs pushing my sister out the way in the process and went straight to my dad (because if dad can’t stop you from choking who can). He was prepared to stick his fingers down my throat but luckily a slip of lemonade brought it back up. As far as I’m aware after this I stopped eating, I was never a big eater and I think my parents struggled to get me to eat as a child but I remember this being the moment I was scared to swallow anything. I would hold food in my mouth and spit it out when my parents weren’t looking, I was always last at the table and always made to sit there until it was all gone, at the time it was horrible, it felt like a lot of pressure and it would bring to tears because my parents as I saw it at the time were forcing me to eat. Family dinners turned in to “Chloe you haven’t eaten enough”. The food that sticks out the most for me is oranges, I would chew all the juices out and spit the skins back into a bowl, I did this for years because I was too scared to swallow them. I can happily say I eat very well now and oranges are apart of my everyday life. I don’t know at what point this changed, somewhere in the middle of high school maybe I just started to eat better and food was no longer an issue for me.

From my point of view I’m just below average height, a good weight but this doesn’t mean I like the way my body looks, yes on occasions in certain shops I can fit into a size 6 and that can still be too large for me but this depends on the shop and the material. Other times I can barely fit in a size 10. When my stomach isn’t bloated I look in the mirror and I’m happy with the way I look. Then I see girls skinner than me and I realise I’m not skinny I’m actually fat compared to them. This can be a moments thought and then I’m back to being quite happy with myself, I’ve learnt how to love myself since leaving college and nothing really gets me down anymore. I know if I’m not happy how to change it, I’ve started eating healthier foods recently and this has definitely helped and I really want to get into a workout routine this is just taking a little longer.

The point of this post was because I’ve always felt I couldn’t complain about my weight, If someone of a larger size starts to put themselves down, on occasions I can relate and I want to say “me too I hate my body, I wish I was skinner”. But does this make me sound selfish? Ungrateful because I have a skinner body that these people would die for yet I’m not still happy with it? The number on the scales has nothing to do with being happy with your body, usually it’s how it looks and people put the two together, oh If I loose 5 stone then I’ll love my body, this isn’t the case. I’d like to tone my thighs, loose that muffin top and reduce how much a double chin appears. Yes I look petite but I still have fat hanging around I don’t want.

At the end of the day you need to learn to love your body and if you aren’t happy with it you can change it. But loosing weight and being a certain size will not bring you happiness. That comes from within, something that takes time and once you love yourself you’ll never look back because you know you can do anything and your size will not bring you down.

Are you happy with your body?
Chlo xo

21 Comments

  1. 11th May 2017 / 12:41 pm

    I totally relate to this post, thank you sooo much for writing it! As a kid I was smaller than everyone both in weight nd height. I was even shorter than my current girlfriend who is the same height now as she was back in middle school. Now the only difference is that I’m taller, but i feel like my body can’t make up it’s mind as I’m biologically make but I have very feminine legs and I’m still stuck thin as hell. I dont quite love my body yet but shes helping me get there sort of. I’m glsd you’re there and loving yourself! x

  2. 6th May 2017 / 12:42 pm

    I’m sorry that you’ve experienced this. It is not fair at all! ‘But loosing weight and being a certain size will not bring you happiness.’ – This sums up my thoughts exactly, I’ve never been above a size 6/8 until very recently and for a while when I realised I was fitting more 8/10 I was gutted. I tried to loose the weight but i was so unhappy. Now I’ve accepted my new size and slightly more curvy body I am much happier in myself and my god I love pizza 😀 x

  3. 29th April 2017 / 3:34 am

    There were many moments I found myself thinking “that was so me” as I read this post. I’ve always been considered the skinny & tall girl. Both things were commented on by people as negetive traits to possess from time to time but through those times my family helped me form a healthy perspective on myself & how to extend grace to those who have something bad to say about my skinny/tall self. Haha. thank you for sharing!!

    – Courtney <3
    http://www.thecurlyanomaly.com

  4. 28th April 2017 / 9:56 pm

    I choked on a sausage when I was 8 and now I gave this horrible obsession with chopping my food up really small. Fab post!

  5. 28th April 2017 / 9:32 pm

    Oh, I’m sorry that you’ve had to deal with these comments. It is totally unacceptable that in this day and age that people feel the need to comment to someones weight! Ive not always been body confident and its taken a hit recently as I’ve been ill. I used to love body con tops and dresses but recently been favouring the more flowing and loose tops to cover up! x

  6. 28th April 2017 / 11:25 am

    I love this. I can relate so much. I’ve never been happy with my body despite being a size 6 – 8 but I do get that paranoia if I voice these feelings among others who don’t understand my thoughts and feelings.

    Well done on being so open and honest.

    Chloe x

  7. 23rd April 2017 / 12:02 am

    Such a lovely, honest post, you are so gorgeous btw Chlo. Body shaming is wrong whether it’s a skinny person or a fat person, it’s not right and it hurts either way, I have had both hence why my weight rockets between either all the time, I hate it.

    Alice x

    • SimplyChlo
      24th April 2017 / 11:40 am

      Thank you so much! I agree it’s wrong either way! I hope it improves in the future and doesn’t just get worse!

      Chlo x

  8. 21st April 2017 / 3:02 pm

    Thank you for sharing this.
    Some people tend to think its only body shaming when you say something to a larger person.
    Ive always been slim and was constantly told I am too skinny or I should eat more (until they see how much I eat).
    It did affect me at some point and I have always ignored the comments.

    • SimplyChlo
      22nd April 2017 / 10:22 pm

      It’s always best to try ignore them and not let it get to you! Glad you could relate! xo

  9. Jadirah Sarmad
    10th April 2017 / 1:30 pm

    It’s so sad that people blatantly body shame. All my childhood, I was called skinny but it was never too bad, or not something that I would even consider bullying, luckily. However, now that I have put on some weight, even though my BMI is perfectly normal and I don’t see myself as overweight, it is weird that some people would randomly call me ‘fat’. I mean it does really boggle my mind as what is even their definition of skinny and fat or is it just something that swings side to side like a pendulum if a particular individual gains or loses.

    ♥ Jadirah Sarmad | Jasmine Catches Butterflies ʚϊɞ

  10. 6th April 2017 / 10:19 pm

    This is such a stong and beautifully written post. You are perfect the way you are! ❤️

  11. 6th April 2017 / 5:45 pm

    This is such an important post that everyone can struggle with their bodies and that’s okay. Also it’s important to remember that we’re all different and that’s what makes us great! Keep loving yourself and remember you’re a queen!

  12. 6th April 2017 / 2:22 pm

    The haribo I sweet must have been such a scary experience for you! I’m never happy with my body size and after giving birth I feel down about myself. I know I shouldn’t as that was my little girls home for just over 9 months

    Tasha x

  13. 31st March 2017 / 10:41 am

    This is a lovely post I totally identify with your feelings and I’ve been through some of this as well! Just remember you are a queen and you are always enough! Xxx

  14. 31st March 2017 / 10:40 am

    This is a lovely post I totally identify with your feelings and I’ve been through some of this as well! Just remember you are a queen and you are always enough! Xxx

    • SimplyChlo
      31st March 2017 / 10:49 am

      Thank you lovely! You are also a queen?

  15. abbeylouisarose
    31st March 2017 / 10:18 am

    Thank you for opening up and sharing this, Chloe! I completely agree that just because you have a figure that other people envy, doesn’t mean that you’re 100% happy with it! It’s all about how YOU feel about it, not what number is on the scale or on your pair of jeans! Shopping is also a total nightmare with the size differences between shops, in some places I’m a 10 or 12, in others an 8 or a 6, it makes no sense!! You keep doing you and make yourself happy, that’s all that matters!

    Abbey ? http://www.abbeylouisarose.co.uk

    • SimplyChlo
      31st March 2017 / 10:50 am

      Thank you Abbey! I know I can’t stand shopping sometimes especially for jeans! Glad you could relate ? xo

  16. 30th March 2017 / 7:20 am

    Such a lovely post Chlo and I can definitely relate to some of the points x

    • SimplyChlo
      30th March 2017 / 9:00 am

      Thank you Jade! xo

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